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No, I’m not getting married.  That would be crazy.  When I likened my anxiety for medical school to the cold feet brides experience before getting married, my friend didn’t get at first.  But then after I started to explain the similarities, she no longer questioned the validity of my analogy.  I’ve never been married or engaged, but I can imagine that some of  the fears I have are shared by people those about to jump the broom.

Things That worry Me:

  • Big Change: Everyone talks about how medical school is unlike anything that one can experience in regards to academic rigors.  Not only will I be in a different academic atmosphere, but I will be in a completely different country.  I’ve been to Mexico many times in the past, but never stayed more than 2 weeks.  I will be living in Mexico for 4 years!!  I will leave behind my family, friends, and career.  I will have to make a new set.
  • Big Investment: I don’t know if you know, but medical school is expensive. Debt is real.  When I’m done I will owe $200,000 to the federal government.  Not only will I sacrifice money, but it will take me at least 4 years to complete my Basic Science and Clinical years.  Then, 1 year for my pre-internship and  2-3 years for residency.  And let’s not even talk about fellowships.
  • Big Decision: Sometimes I wonder if I’m really ready.  Is this really for me?  Will I make it?  Can I take it?  I feel like my body was abducted by a crazy person who enrolled in a prep course, studied for the MCAT, took the MCAT, applied to UAG, interviewed at UAG, then vacated my body.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m really excited about going to medical school, but part of me can’t believe this is really happening to me.